"If you aren't good at loving yourself, you will have a difficult time loving anyone, since you'll resent the time and energy you give another person that you aren't even giving to yourself." -Barbara De Angelis

c",) im happy... Im really very happy!  A lot of people, especially friends ask "musta?" and most of the time, most people would say.. "OK lang" or "Fine". Same as me, I often answer my friends... "OK naman." And that's it. But this time... whenever I receive SMS asking: "how are you?" I would say "Eto, very happy!!'  and its quite shocking for them! Most would immediately ask me "New boyfriend?!" Well, sorry to disappoint you guys but NO! Ironically, that's the reason why I am very happy!! Im happy being single! And im proud to be such!

               Libra People, or those who are born between September23-October23, are romantic-hopeless type of people. They are in Love with "Love" itself. Most of them cant survive not having that special someone to be with... talk with or even fight with... its just not normal for them to be alone... Astronomically speaking, they say its because Venus or the Goddess of Love and Beauty rule us Librans. Psychologically, most us have low EQ even if we do have high IQ...  Scientifically... loved ones are part of our basic needs... I used to be like this... Used to be...

               Im on the stage of my life enjoying bein single... I even regret wasting too much time... I realize, I wasted half of my life following orders, trying to make myself fit as a "PERFECT GIRL" and torturing myself with self-inflicted pain. Everytime my relationship ends I would blame myself and think of my blemishes and stains that made my lover go...  I would go on wondering what could haves... and think that maybe... Im just not worthy of being loved.

Then another man would come wearing a knight in shining armour costume ready to sweep me off my feet...  and again, Id fall... I would think... "Maybe this is Mr. Right"... "maybe this time he's man enough to truly love me"... Ehhhhnnkkk!!! Wrong again sistah!! And again, and again, and again!! Until one day, I found myself tired and brutely knocked down. I don't wanna love no more! Suddenly... those praises like "I think you are the answer to my prayers" or "you are the only one who made me feel this way"... makes me laugh! I cant believe those phrases used to get me! They seemed to be the sound of birds singing or bells ringing before... I even hear chimes whenever I hear the words "I" "LOVE" and "YOU" from the person I like. But now, it just irritates me how men doesn't really have originality! Do they all attend the same School? Is there a seminar for guys called "How to manipulate a girl 1, 2 and 3"? Is there a "KG101" subject at PMA?!  Tsk! Tsk!

               I've been hurt several times by several people... some of them mean it. Some of them don't. But who cares if they mean it or not. What is important is that you know how to forgive. For that's the only way you could be free. Free of hatred so there's more space for love. Free of sadness so you'll have plenty of time to be happy... That way, you'll be able to see life on a different angle... fun and colourful!

               One day I woke up missing a lot of people. I realize that its been a long time not being able to communicate with friends! I lost most of my friends number when my mobile got stolen in rush to meet the PMA curfew! I forgot to reply on my friends thoughtful messages because I was busy maximizing the free time of my boyfriend. I wasn't able to meet up and have coffee with my friends because I need to attend special events at Fort del Pilar. Wrong priority I guess... or wrong time management. But I thank God he gave me understanding friends... whose willing to continously send me emails when they cant reach me thru mobile... those who never gets mad even if I wasn't able to send them replies... those that wait even for eternity until the Parade of the PMA Alumni finishes just to share stories with me! I am really very lucky!!

               Then I begin to love myself more and more! Cause I realize... If my friends waste their lifetime waiting for me, who says im really not worth loving?! c",)